“When I Arrive…I’m Already There!” [The Instant Boost of Confidence That ‘The Fro’ Can Create]
I feel amazing…this look is regal…unique in it’s existence…I’m never letting it go.
These were my thoughts last night as I approached the mirror to do one last style check before leaving out. I was so pumped to be trying out one of Neosoul lounges in the city. Many times I have felt that, man this isn’t my home…and I jut haven’t found my spot yet.
You know the feeling right? Well, at least those of you who have picked a new city to call home away from anyone you knew or are related to during your adult life…the feeling of emptiness though you’ve met hundreds and have crossed paths with so many…it just doesn’t feel complete until you find that spot that becomes YOUR spot.
I never understood the importance of having that social place where you feel you can go to just be you as an adult. Being that I was mostly eclectic growing up-there wasn’t even a recognizable teenage laymen term for it yet, at least where I come from-I never really just had a spot that I felt was made just for me…just for my crowd.
I’m not saying that all naturals are going to be eclectic like myself and absolutely love Neosoul music like myself….I just do…and…I just so happen to be natural. So, there’s no attempt to generalize here. I’ve always adored Neosoul music…it soft, deep, exotic tone has always seemed to just match perfectly my soft, deep, exotic personality.
Last night I surprisingly took a break from my five week consistent protective variation of twisted styles and I let HER out-the fro of course. SHE was so ecstatic to have some time out and to herself. She let her presence be known and showed me a different side-or rather-size to me that I’d never seen. It-the experience- was so wonderful. For me, it’s like a long-term reward of giving her so quiet time to herself…she got a chance to show how much she has reflected and grown-literally.
As I fixed my belt and prompted my skirt for the last time, all I could do was exhibit a slight basing smile that was relished to see that SHE-my lovely fro-had grown to be in the ‘medium fro zone’…I’ve been waiting for this moment…that feeling of seeing my reward of patience and nurture collide into one.
I’m reminded often that ‘going natural’ was the best thing I could have done to have lustrously healthy hair. Moments like these tells me that my confidence before is not even comparable to the levels of confidence I have now…it’s the bomb-being natural-I’m just feeling myself all the way.
-The Brown Truth
***In My Zone and Feeling Myself Photo Shoot—Side Eye—Below***